A New Post! Pre-Surgery

Who knew it had been seven years since my last post here?

I did, but I haven’t had the time or inclination to write an update.  Facebook helps me give updates to my family very quickly, so it seemed unnecessary.  I haven’t paid much attention to this page, but I should concede that this is a very good venue for giving lengthier updates (that can be linked from whatever social media folks are consuming).

Did you know I’m having surgery in a few days?  I sure do.  I’ll be honest, I’m worried.  Not terrified, of course, but I just have concerns.  Largely, they’re not for my own safety and health, but as the primary breadwinner for the family and a regular participant in our daily lives (thank heavens), when I’m out of pocket, it’s a big disruption!

My surgeons will do good work, but brain surgery has a heck of a recovery time!  I haven’t gone through the whole thing yet, but my understanding is that I’m just going to be tired once I’m over the actual, physical surgery.

That’s a hard one… with five kids and a dog – and my wife, of course – it’s going to take mountains of patience on their end and on mine.  I’m sure they’re going to end up saints in the end.  I get grumpy when I’m tired and if I’m going to be tired all the time, well, you can do the math.  Ashley’s cause for canonization is under way, for sure.

Other saints are involved too!  All of my family is participating in one form or another for which I’m eternally grateful.  I appreciate any and all help for Ashley given that the only thing I am supposed to do is rest.  Resting is “easy” so Ash has the hard stuff.

At the end of the day, there isn’t much to say except, it’s going to be interesting.

Oh wait, you didn’t know I needed brain surgery either?  Well, surprise!  I have what they call an acoustic neuroma, which is also called a vestibular schwannoma.  It’s not a cancerous tumor, but it is one that grows on the balance nerve in your ear and, if it gets big enough, starts pushing on your brain stem causing all sorts of other issues.

When they take it out surgically, you pretty much always lose hearing in that ear, unless it’s very small.  Mine’s medium sized… like a grape, apparently, which is on the cusp of being considered large.  I’ll lose hearing on the left side for sure.  Not only that, but I lose one half of my balance system, which means relearning how to balance with only one input on the right side.

Theoretically, it’s a pretty interesting problem to have.  In practice, it sucks.  I’ve been grinding my teeth for the last week in anticipation of the procedure and I’ve had to stop taking supplements, both of which appear to have caused headaches and tiredness.  I’m just theorizing, though, but if I had to guess, those are the culprits.  I’m hoping it’s not a preview of coming attractions.

Here’s my note to Ashley, should she ever read it: I’m going to try my best to be as normal as possible!  Please tell me I’m being grumpy.  Please tell me to go lie down.  Please tell me you need to get out of the house for a bit.  The last thing I want is for you to be any more frustrated than usual.

Hopefully I can write an update after surgery that says this was all cake and we’ve gotten through it.  No one would want to read about what I’m thinking because who am I, but I should at least be able to say that Ashley has, in fact, been canonized and is the patron saint of silly husbands.

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